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November 6, 2012
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well, my father
he thought he was a cowboy,
he thought he was a yank
he thought everyone he met was his partner in crime
and life was an all end all shoot-em-up
he told stories
and he taught me how to dance with drunks.

well my mother,
she thought i was a changeling,
she thought the world was out to get her
she taught me
well she taught me that innocence is fragile
and that what is sweet often sours,
that madness is not the kind of disease we think it is.

and i grew up
wanting to create something beautiful
or hideous
or both at the same time
with my little hands, and big eyes
and that used to scare me
terrify me,
cause contradictions in my head
at night, when i dream't
with my hand against my ear
thinking the pounding of blood vessels
was the pounding of the big bad wolf coming to get me
and i would dream of the world
with the trampling of a flower,

no sir,
these eyes
they are not haunted
but they are inhabited,
i have a soul sir,
and i won't sell it
not for your pennies and packs of gum
not for the world
not for the end of it
not for your trampled flowers.
oh. i remember...

thank you so much for the DD and all the comments, +favs and views.
honestly, i couldn't believe it. it made me happy to know perhaps i reached some people, and that perhaps also they got something from these things im bleeding out onto my keyboard.
much love.
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BluishShimmer Jan 16, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is beautiful. I loved the contradiction in the creating something beautiful and/or hideous since something beautiful can rise from something tragic and I particularly love the last bit about having a soul and not selling it. You were so definite and steadfast about your decision. ♥

Gobba42 Oct 25, 2013  Student Writer
Its beautiful, I just can't figure out who the speaker is talking to.
AwkwardShinigami Oct 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I absolutely love this. :)
This is truly wonderful! I love the emotion that runs through it strongly!

Did you know that I found this when I went to submit and I was selecting the emotional/free verse gallery and there was this thumbnail and I think that's pretty cool-
hi2b2 Jun 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hmmmmmmmm, seems like there's many ideas sprung off of this poem.
- goods of life
- bads of life
- pushing through
- standing strong
- and some others I'll Have to dig for that I know are there.

quite the nice free verse poem I'd say. Splendid job, might inspire me too make more poems. I have yet to make poems with such messages as this and I think that'd be cool.

Ps: not trying to sound self centered but, could you by any chance read my poems?
onehalfbowkind May 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Would you mind telling me what the meaning behind the title was?
EclipseWolf64 Apr 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow... this is amazing... The grammar might not be the best, but the content is what matters. These words are inspiring. Write more! I love this!
zakaroh Apr 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I don't know what you did right here, but you did it. Saw this on the "free verse examples" page while submitting (here's the poem in question... [link]) and had to check it out. And don't knock bleeding onto the keyboard - a lot of rich stuff in that blood. :P
onehalfbowkind Mar 18, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Would you mind if I did a dramatic reading of this at one point? I can't right now because I would have to use my boyfriend's recording equipment which he hasn't set up yet but I would really like to when I can. I'll link to this and give credit and send you a link to it if you want :3
Fairyblush Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is simply beautiful and makes me feel strangely nostalgic and distanced at the same time.
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